Holding With Open Palms

Living in Quito for the past (almost two months!!) has felt like a deja-vu feeling. It feels so familiar and known, yet everyday has been a little bit of a thrill because one never knows what will happen. Will it rain? Will it be sunny? What am I having for almuerzo? Will we take the…

A Lavish God

It was a Sunday morning after church, I sat on my bed and realized I had woken up in Africa, and I think deep down I knew that I didn’t really want to be there. I was terrified that I had left a good thing for an unknown thing…would the next three and a half…

Overcome by Grace

  Running away always seems like the easiest thing to do. Because it leaves you unscathed. Unhurt. Intact. My favorite professor once told me the story of a friend who used to have a recurring nightmare where he would be in a desert and there was big storm coming towards him. He said it was…

Journal Thoughts on Korea

We are in a Korean cafe right now. It is called Angel in us. We are officially done with 3 camps. What in the world!!!? Time has passed so fast it has slipped through my fingers. But reporting back on the trip… Jesus has been in it. God you have been a God of giggles,…

Taste and See

I am afraid to be broken. But I am. I am broken and messy, and clumsy, and sinful. I am in need of a savior everyday. I am in need of grace. I am not used to dancing to the rhythm of grace. I am used to dancing cautiously, over eggshells, carefully not to mess…

For the Love of Costco

I don’t know if it is the dollar hotdog and soda combo from the food court, or the book section, or the samples they have out on Tuesdays, Thursdays, Friday-Sunday, or the friendly ladies who work there, or the flower section that makes me love Costco so, so much. I’ve gotta admit that back when…

And now, I wait

And now I stand still for a moment and wait for God to show me what our next dance move is. I’ve been off beat and I have been trying to escape from the arms of Jesus, trying to do a solo. But the music has changed and I’ve grown tired & weary. Jesus was…

Jesus As Simple But Never Basic

I’m gonna say something I’ve almost never said out loud. I think Jesus is simple. It’s weird to say that because I don’t fully understand God, I cannot fully grasp him, and I can’t even claim to fully know Him, because Jesus is too big, too wide, too deep, too God, and I am too…

Flaws and all.

I am fatally flawed. And I am incredibly broken, and prone to wonder. I am sinful, and stubborn, and hard-hearted, and self-seeking. I am self-righteous and distracted. And sometimes I feel so inadequate, and so undeserving of being called a child of God. Because God is a God of things that are lovely, things that…

Sacrificial Love

I think loving people requires sacrifice, it really does. Sometimes it requires to lose sleep, or time, or even things that hurt the flesh like the need to shame others when they’ve wronged us or our need to receive an apology, or our need to be angry and bitter. Loving people requires sacrifice- it is…